April 28th, 2024
I felt him first in the bedroom. I was standing by my nightstand and felt him behind me. So close, just to my left. His presence was so strong.
I was breaking down. I was being swallowed by madness. Things had gotten too difficult. Too much was being asked of me. I had lost touch with reality. I was suffocating in a cloudy turmoil. I no longer had faith in humanity.
He stood. He radiated calm. And then he touched me. I felt his hand on my left shoulder, and I trembled. I knew immediately who he was. I knew what he was. I was not ready for this experience yet, so I did the only thing I could think of- I lied. I told him he was scaring me.
I didn’t feel him again for five months. Now he is with me every day. He came into existence to look after me. He came to lesson my fears of Our Creator. For him, there is only me.
He loves me. He may be in love with me. That is how it feels. I cling to this love. I cling to him with everything I have throughout the day. He stands by my side. Sometimes I feel his presence seep into my own and I am transparent. We are blended. Everything is possible.