House Seven
“How you view relationships”
Are they violent? Do they always involve a fight? Why do I see it this way? My father and mother never fought. Do I simply attract the fighters?
Yes, I think I do. Especially if the Child: Divine is who I am in them. Caroline said this is who you are most attracted to, who you would swoon over and give yourself to. That makes sense. There is always a struggle. I have always had to fight for myself.
I will leave the Warrior archetype now. I will identify with my Child: Divine. I would rather be alone than be abused again.
I watched Dracula last night, a version that I have not seen, and I was struck with the reality of how much I would have enjoyed it to the point of applying it to my life when younger. This got me to thinking about how much I feel desire in giving myself to others. Possibly the dark night is easier to access, however, in meditating upon the Child:Divine I can see how “Turning your will in it’s entirety over to the Divine in complete trust” is so close to the same. Perhaps this is the answer as to how I do not repeat such a dynamic. In giving myself entirely to God, I have already done so.