July 16th, 2025
Yes, something was amiss. I know we are not to dwell upon reasons, expecting answers while wasting time in the here and now, in this world. I could have sworn that something came into me. Something uninvited. Something controlling. I was controlled, for three weeks.
Horror took me, and dragged me down under the dark cloud, into a sticky slime that I could not get off. I couldn’t breath. I couldn’t reach the Divine. I knew He was still there, on the other side. I knew my angel was there, trying desperately to comfort me. I couldn’t feel him near enough to rescue me though, to get me out of the muck.
I was searching again this morning, sitting at my secretary asking questions. Again, wanting answers. I had given up on the date and duration of my struggles though. I had given up. But as soon as the question was out of my mouth in my thoughts, “How do I ever feel worthy again to even speak with You?” there was a hand on my face, not so gentle but quick and direct, and directed I was. My eyes fell specifically upon a book that I brought into my house. A book that I had not even opened yet.
The day I felt bereft of the Lord and woke up alone was the same day the book was delivered to my house. I put it away to read later. Now, I’ve read pages that only can be described as brainwashing hidden under the guise of spiritual enlightenment. Confusion causing a loss of reality in order to hypnotize you, reprograming you, away from God. Suggesting that He has someone speaking for Him, sin does not exist, suicide is a perfectly reasonable solution, and murder is necessary in some instances.
It did not take me long to realize I let evil into my home. And who exactly would be the he? What possible entity would speak for God? Well, I know who would try and get away with convincing us so. How cunning the devil truly is, creeping in disguised as faith.
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October 6th, 2025
It has been a long time since I felt evil. A long time in regards to what is going on. The timeline of events from when I started writing in the beginning of July and now are accelerated to what I consider to be transcendent communication with the Divine. My time with Him and with Auriel gets stronger when I feel each of them when they choose to appear, and this balances any visitations from the evil one and his fallen angles.
Two weeks ago, when I had a negative person come to visit, I realized that I was slipping. I got angrier and angrier and I lost the wave I was riding for the past several months. I lost God, or so I thought. Probably what would be more accurate would be to say I simply could not feel Him anymore. The strange thing was that I couldn’t feel my angel at my side either. When the Lord decides it is best to fade into the background I usually still have Auriel to stand in for Him, for lack of a better description. This time however, I felt a darkness that swallowed me so deep that I needed him and also did not feel his presence. I understand that he follows our Creator’s direction and even if he wanted to help me, for whatever reason, he was not allowed.
This time I cannot remember a single thing of what went on. I should. I can remember in vivid detail all that I have experienced and have written about of the times I have felt the love of either God Himself or my angel. I don’t find this strange, only proof that this latest experience of evil was real. After all, if I am in fact in the hands of the Lord, why would he want me to remember such ugliness. Before, years ago when I was totally lost, I can remember, but this? Perhaps it was too insignificant for me to hold in my memory. What I do remember is that as soon as I addressed the evil one, I changed into a different person immediately. I was myself again.
“You can ruin me as much as you want these next couple of weeks. You can break me. He will take me back. No matter how far I fall, I am still His. I will go back to Him. I will never not choose Him.
~~~ What the evil one wanted removed from my writings ~~~
November 10th – December 23rd, 2026
After my experience on January 19th, I woke TOTALLY doubting my previous experiences dating back to July, which I can never, and no one else can ever, make me doubt what has taken place. I was compelled to erase, or commit to a “draft,” the following…
- https://thepathofthemystics.com/intimacy/
- https://thepathofthemystics.com/time-to-start/
- https://thepathofthemystics.com/living-with-an-angel/
- xhttps://thepathofthemystics.com/2341-2/
- https://thepathofthemystics.com/divine-authority/
- https://thepathofthemystics./the-library
- https://thepathofthemystics.com/the-gift-of-anger/
~~~ How the evil one succeeded in getting in ~~~
January 3rd – January 22nd, 2026