Perhaps the meditation has stopped for a while. I have sat and not heard a word ever sense the golden light shown down upon me and I was told time to start once again. This time I saw my angel in full, hovering above me as a sort of conduit linking the Divine world with my own.
I may understand what that is about. I begged God to remove my suffering with the heat. This affliction has plagued me for the past four years. I have endured one hundred to three hundred episodes a day. Of course, as I believed it would, it stopped the very next day. Nothing, for two days, but then they were back.
I sat at the table that night and out of the blue felt an extreme anger. Possibly anger served me in this case. I nearly slammed my fist on the table as I said, “I am done with this!” I could see and feel a thick, black, metal wall come down around me and they were gone. It has been one week now and I have not felt them at all. I am most definitely healing myself, with the aid of our Creator, however without asking Him.
Now my dog has been taken off one of her cancer medications and given the prognosis of living perhaps another two years. This goes back to months ago when I was told that I could heal her.
I am taking this in stride. I now know I have this ability, but do not know what to do with it, what He as planned for me. I am adhering to my not trying to figure things out though.