Author's Notes, Kya

Healings

The mystical experience is sometimes a healing one. I first noticed, a year ago, that things were able to change on a cellular level with my thoughts focused. I had it in my mind, for whatever reason, I kept saying to myself, “I know I can heal this.” Since then, I have had several ailments disappear and not return. Although, I deeply believe that the Lord has taken many of these away Himself for His own reasons.

It has changed in speed- in that as soon as I think about it or focus on the problem it takes little time now to stop the problem.

It has changed in process- where I used to pray for Him to change things in my health, I now simply think, “I can change this” with the desired result.

Now, it has changed in ability- where I only healed my own ailments, I have now possibly done something to alleviate the pain and suffering in my dog who has cancer.

I haven’t written about this because it seems very egotistical to think that I am some sort of healer. I don’t believe that. But, I did think to myself, when I was told my dog had cancer, “You can heal her.” I remember thinking how will I get inside her head to get her to stop the energy leaks…? I thought, do I put my hands on her or something? She just wiggles then. So, I simply thought it. Not even prayed really, just a thought. Something like, “It’s only cancer.”

That is the only thing I can say is for real about this. When I think something is too big for me to take care of, on any level not just health, I simply ask myself, “If God can cure any ailment in the blink of an eye, don’t you think He can take care of this?”

Kya

Peace in Death

I have news. The worst kind of news. News of death of a very truly loved one once again. This time I am prepared…

I heard the news and still stayed in my own world of peace. It did not leave me. My angel did not leave me. God did not leave me…

My grief could consume me. I could fall apart. But I am not in that place now. I am stronger than I have ever been as a human, and although I have lost faith in it, humanity, I can feel the others that will to comfort me. I think it’s nice.

I have the strangest feeling that this will not lead to another state of aridity. I almost feel like this will make me ascend to the next level of closeness to the Divine.

Oh how I don’t want this! My only consolation is that she will be reunited with her Creator. Oh how I could fight this!