I am being told to get close to my angel once again. I still feel like I should keep a distance from him even though I know what happened to be a trick. He was sent to intervene and since I have felt the openness, willingness to understand, and love in my heart, I have been under the impression that his mission is accomplished. I am making the mistake thinking because of this that he will go, or I should let him go.
My healing and understanding may be a part of my daily life now, and I am one step further, but now I am supposed to listen, as I was told by him. He also said, “Time to start.” I forgot. I have been afraid of him since I was deceived by the great deceiver. I can only guess that his words mean he will be teaching me. I, again, in fear of offending God have ignored this. But if I am to respect this gift from the Lord Himself, a gift of one of His own, I should stop trying to control the situation with my human will. So I will do that. Angels are messengers after all.
I can listen to Auriel closely and hear him clearly from time to time. If not aloud, then in my mind, as a thought or feeling. I sometimes think they are words in my imagination and have to use discernment, but even though I may feel that way, I can either stop the communication or continue. He is happy this morning that I have realized this. Not the clever, humorous way that he has laughed about it in the past, but a peaceful and satisfied way. Contented.
As I said before, I believe this time of year is a special place reserved for myself and The Divine to speak clearly. This is the third year. I can feel consolations bestowed upon me and am grateful. I remind myself to be humble and undemanding. I am so relieved however, to have help in carrying my cross and feel the peace once again. I now think this is Auriel’s job, or responsibility, and have to focus on him, work with him, and thank him.