Two days ago, when I woke, I asked my angel to help me find God again. I keep slipping, and although I don’t feel like I am drifting apart from God, I do not feel Him like I used to. I have gone back and reread everything I have written here and I realize that we were much closer back then. I want that back.
So I asked Auriel. I asked him how to get closer to The Creator once again. He told me to put Him first. Always. I thought that meant in the mornings, but I understand now it is to be applied all day long. In every action, every decision, every feeling, I can act and feel in a way to His liking. Putting God first. It is a simple, “What would He think about this?”
After, as I understood and put into place throughout my day the words that Auriel spoke to me, I felt guided by him. He was in the forefront of my daily routine, constantly nudging me in the right direction, perhaps giving me pause to think about what I was just going to think about. This was the first time I ever prayed to Auriel. I actually asked him to tell me how he himself did it. It seemed to be okay to do so. I will pray to him again.
The feeling, what Theresa would call sweetness in devotion was back. It is such a pleasant thing to live with, and it can be lived with easily. Divine consolations on the other hand can overwhelm me into a stupor where I just want to sit all day with a blank stare on my face and feel Him. I understand how to get it back. Always, every single crossroads, no matter how small, I can stop briefly and choose my response, until it becomes automatic, and I live the peaceful existence that He gifted me with once before.
I am still so in-love with our Divine Creator.