I told him everything. I asked to speak with You’re voice and that is what I did. There was peace in the room, and I think my angel descended and sat next to me on the couch listening, comforting, while You controlled the outcome from above.
I never expected it to go the way it did. Not only was I understood, but I was met with anger over the fact that I had to endure what I did, and sympathy for my choices. He told me it explained everything.
I cannot say that during the conversation, or here now after, that I can discern the influence that I feel, whether it comes from You or Auriel. I prayed to You for this. It is a big one. I do know at this point that angels are there to sit by your side, and possibly push you down the stairs for your own good, but Divine intervention is Divine intervention. There is no mistaking it. It is all encompassing, covering all of the bases so to speak. Nothing gets left out. No loose strings. So, I have just answered my own question.
I also feel detached. Somewhat like nothing at all. This confession makes me feel no joy or sorrow. Instead I feel a sense of dullness, a bit of confusion, and something that is still not relief it’s over.
There is no way I could have expected it to go like it did unless You were there. Once again, You come to me, You take over for me. My free will is latent and I give it all to You for Your discernment. Your grace subdues my spirit and I dissolve into a still puddle at Your feet. I feel Your blessing. I Feel small but strong, like my soul is able to handle such things on my own now. You have the mercy to take my hand though, and lead me through the rubble that I have left in the wake of my poor choices.