I heard a song while driving today and I felt the heady feeling of love well up inside me and bring me to tears. I am ready to listen. I am back at peace, and most importantly I can feel Him strongly in my life again. I can feel my angel standing near, hands on my shoulders. My shoulders aching from the distress of what I just went through.
I wish I could properly express how consuming this feeling is, the dedication and willingness to give the entirety of myself to this force. There is only one focus for me during these times. I care nothing for anything else, especially the things of this world.
I owe our Creator so much. He has come to me in such a way that I could never doubt it. I sometimes think that I must have something to do for Him, some role to play. I realize now that this, my healing, my change in attitude and behavior, may be all He wants to give me… I am fine with that. I wish to remain small in the presence of such Greatness. It is the only way I can continue.