Letters to The Divine, The Dark Night of the soul, Times of Aridity

Anguish

My soul hurts.

I feel so beaten down by what I just went through. I cannot get the connection I need. I am despondent.

As I feel like a lost and lonely child, I think of Him as a father today, not a lover. I am so small.

I am in so much pain. I don’t know where my spirit will go if I am alone for good now. The depression is real.

I don’t know what I did. What was it exactly… I am given no direction.

So, like a child I will hide under the covers until the monsters are gone. Until He comes and soothes my aching heart. Prove to me His protection.

Father, I hurt so badly. Just give me one day, one moment, to know you are still here with me.